Day 9, yukky

I still feel awful. Very tired, fell asleep at lunch time for 2 hours. Nasty oozy stuff coming out, better go and get the nurses to check it out tomorrow. Feel very shivery at times. Taking the antibiotics to keep infection at bay but it does look infected regardless. Right side is BLACK, and this is not a nice sight, as if part of you has been dead about a week. 

I keep getting memories of the drains coming out, that shocking feeling and sound, and I yell at the thought of it and nearly can't stand the memory. Post traumatic stress I suppose.

I used to like having a shower, but now I dread it, because I have to look at the mess. 

At least the glands in my neck are not swollen any more from the anaesthetic tube.

I feel grumpy and miserable.